Cried a little bit. Not because of anything really...just watched this http://bit.ly/fLUMVo and from 3:30 just reminds me...how I can look back and see what I've done, people I've met, and things I've seen. And its sad happy times end. But the future is malleable. idk x3 but the finale always gets me crying, like through first 15 of Up or the ending to Toy Story 3.

It's scary trying to look and plan my career though, honestly, because I really don't know how far I will go or...if any of this is for naught. I eventually draw for me but I can't shake the fear that I won't ever be able to separate myself from the rest. To make my name known like Glenn Keane or Chris Sanders. Especially since I'm 21 and I've not even been in an art school yet or even gotten a stable career path or stable job by now.

I walk forward to the future but look back at what I have accomplished...than look around me and think ' why not me?'

Got an app on my phone to post to my lj so I'll update more....hopefully not always around 4am x3

Will do a proper update tomorrow maybe c:

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so...i've some what neglected this thing by...a good few months xD
gonna use this more often, i promise! i'll update what's happened in my life since the last post and much more :P

ALSO.
if you didn't know, I have a Twitter and Tumblr to go with my dA/fA :3

Twitter-Raviolioli
Tumblr- http://sketchyraviel.tumblr.com/

till tomorrow~


(it's getting late and work tomorrow or i would post it tonight xD;;; )

 I'm kind of getting fed up with life's sick sense of humor :\

was on my way back from a doctor's appointment  to my apt and when driving down the road A BLOCK FROM MY APT.
and this is what happened
( pics under here )

I'M ALIIIIIIVE 8D

I've lately been using this site to only keep up with friends but maybe should utilize this like everyone else.

SO ( ANYWAYS here's the update )

sorry for such a HUGE hiatus on my lj guys lol but basically besides a give or take a few months of events prior to what happened in this rant/update (me moving in with roommate, roommate turning into a unstable manipulative leech and for a while a few job/money issues) this is basically the sum of what's been on my mind this past 2 months. I'm going to try and update more often (THIS TIME I'M GOING TO TO IT LOL)

till next time *salute*

 idk i'm not sure what to do with myself. Part of me says to obviously apply to places but I'm not sure how to besides going to the mall or Monster.com...and that just gets you so far...
I applied at Gamestop and SO MANY customers say that I should work there with how much I know compared to their current employees but apparently they aren't hiring GAs and only SGAs (basically managers or assistant managers) so...I hope I do well and get that or something...because seriously can't take anymore of this hypocritical, double talk coming from my dad anymore. 

BIG ONE: "I support you learning to be an artist, but don't waste your day drawing, get more interests because that'll get you only so far :U' 


i mean really...how the hell does that make sense? You support me learning to improve my talents but dislike me drawing (aka using those talents) because i should widen my view to other things that'll help my future? :|



idk =3= 
i just don't even...

 Welcome sudden depression, long time no see....you ugly bitch >:T

So suddenly I'm all depressed (thankfully not for artistic reasons...). 
I believe the origin of this is pin-point in the fact that; a. i don't have a job (a well houred one....), b. a way to get out of this tyranical house and from my dad (good intentions but methodology from the stone ages), c. not having a stable job to move out... or d. all of the above and then some..

I've been doing the obvious and applying EVERYWHERE (except restaurants because past experiences explain that they give shit hours.) but I'm either not getting contacted back or they don't reach me after the interview. My dad's solution is to lower my standards and forefit my dignity and a smidgen of my pride and go for jobs that would not help me out in the long run. (basically ranging from car wash to whatever is posted in the town hall or oddjobs (idk...))

I was working at a cafe on campus but was let go after 3 weeks and apparently not moving fast enough, even though I was doing well and when they were transitioning me finally i fucked up a few times. the only reason why i screwed up those times was because they boss had the WORST timing in switching me over to that station (hot stand, basically where we toast everything) by choosing THE BUSIEST time of day on THE BUSIEST day of the week :| 
luckly i've kept this from my dad so he wouldn't go on a rampage like the one that lasted from December til end of January when i got that cafe job. the only reasoning behind this is because i fucking hate it when he 'coaches' me on how to succeed. Mainly because it's not coaching, it's guilt tripping and making me feel like utter shit... of course i can't tell him this or else he'll get even MORE butt hurt about me not 'taking his advice' and not seeing him as a father....


oh and my Color comp teacher threatened me by saying that i have enough points that he could toss me out of his class if i were to be absent, tardy or if he 'catches' me with my cell out again....i fucking hate this cuntbag.... :T

SOOOOOO right now just living off of what my dad's giving me monthly and...nothing else really orz


DRAMA I FUCKING HATE YOU, GTFO OF MY LIFE >:CC i freaking hate life right now....




ALSO. isn't it hypocritical if someone forces their beliefs on you for the sole reason that 'it'll help you succeed' bs but they'll never heard a word of your's? :| because i do and i fucking hate this shit.

Just got out of class and was ejected early from Color Compussion because i was LOOKING AT THE TIME ON MY CELL PHONE! And since he is being such a strict hardass about anything including tardiness (5minutes late is tardy apparently :\ no sympathy at all ) and cell phones. So he just told me to pack up and leave instead of wait 15 minutes til the end of class....fucking want to just end this class but i need it |CC

Besides that, the mild case of belle's palsy i had is going away~ I'm so happy lol it felt soooo weird laughing one sided or smiling one sided...kinda made me feel like this-


...exactly like that XD


ALSO i just opened up my own blog spot so if you want to follow me on there~raviolioli.blogspot.com/

But that's besides the point |D

YESSS i'm going to try and post more often (don't see the point of this place if i don't xD) 

So Tuesday I got a citation :T me being 'durhur hurr' was going to a Verizon store before class started and went on a pretty packed street (first durhur on my behalf ...). So i looked to the next lane to try and find an opening to merge but when i looked in front of me i saw the car was going (there was a pack of cars in the lane infront of me...)....and then he wasn't. He apparently had to stop immediately because a bus driver popped out of the bus lane and he braked....which made me bump him = =;; OH HAPPY DAY~ 

so the cop just slapped a 165 dollar citation on me yay~


also if anyone's interested I'm bored as of late so I'm offering $5-10 sketches.

just pm me the info and i'll give you my paypal account name and we'll go from there ;3

for anyone curious about how they will turn out:


something similar to this c: busts (inked or colored you choose) 5 bucks and full bodies 10 bucks (same as busts with inking or colored)


~u~

Its been a while~ lol; sorry I haven't posted anything in a long time but with college, a job (that is being an incredibly huge ass hat :T), and my dad pretty much filling any gaps of stress that I managed to wedge out the day before...

but currently I'm looking for another job to get money and my dad off my back.
LOL also started two art classes and my. god. Art supplies are expensive....seriously....got Newsprint, 18/24 Drawing Pad, sketch book, brushes, gouache paint, a brayer, and some pencils....100 bucks orz and I didn't even get everything.....

Sorry for my whining for anyone that cares...just been stressful here...

So it's been a while, LJ |D;;  I kinda fell into this slump again where I only read my friend's journals and neglect my own |D;; whoops...

ANYWAYS i had terribly disappointing halloween :\ I set out candy for the trick-or-treaters and NO ONE CAME D8 literally no kids came by for candy...

but other than that i'm also panicking because i....forgot to go to my job's manditory meeting last night....lakjdsklaj so i called them this morning to apologize and they wanna talk to me when i come in during my next shift QnQ i reallyreally REALLY hope i don't get fired...


SO YA, I HOPE I REMEMBER TO POST MORE |D actually maybe i'll just do a post every friday (if i remember |D )

til then, cya guys c: